"Driving away from the wreck of the day
And the light's always red in the rear-view
Desperately close to a coffin of hope
I'd cheat destiny just to be near you
If this is giving up, then I'm giving up
If this is giving up, then I'm giving up, giving up
On love, On love

Driving away from the wreck of the day
And I'm thinking 'bout calling on Jesus
'Cause love doesn't hurt so I know I'm not falling in love
I'm just falling to pieces

And if this is giving up then I'm giving up
If this is giving up then I'm giving up, giving up
On love, On love

And maybe I'm not up for being a victim of love
When all my resistance will never be distance enough"

This song totally speaks to me at the moment. I'm completely lost within my own mind and I can't even talk about it with the one person I need to. So I'm stuck with these thoughts not knowing how to act upon them, or if I should, or if I ever should have to begin with. Maybe we'd be happier. Healthier. Whole. But that's a foolish line of reasoning and I know it. I'm afraid this mess became a wedge driving a small space which will grow into an impassable canyon with treacherous pathways no one could ever hope to navigate safely. You can't just put a Band-Aid on this in my mind. Is there a solution? Can fairy tale endings ever come true? Maybe I was foolish to ever believe they could be true. They're right... I should get my head out of my alternate world where chivalry, white knights, and fair maidens really do exist. This is 2009 and we live in a concrete world... both in thought and reality.

"Driving away from the wreck of the day
And it's finally quiet in my head
Driving alone, finally on my way home to the comfort of my bed
And if this is giving up, then I'm giving up
If this is giving up, then I'm giving up, giving up
On love, On love"